HigherLearning

Gone but NEVER EVER Forgot

"So today is my late sisters birthday. 5-11-11. I figured ill start from the beginning. I wrote this the day after she passed.. I literally put my heart into this.

First i would like to thank everyone for giving your support in our time of need..im about to walk you through us growing up.....Damn I dont even know where to start. You have always been there for me...and now your gone just like that. I just seen you on tuesday..When i dropped you off at the airport.. Nothing but smiles and laughs on our way up there..We finally got there after you confused me with your directions.. You were never that good with them..When we started ballin down 295 in my flashy 95 honda..I told you it drove smooth..You were all excited to be in my car for your first time...Never in a lifetime would i have thought that, that would be our last time in the car together..We finally get to the airport.. i took your heavy ass luggage out the car...I told you before we put it on the scale that it was over 50..and you asked if i knew because of the boxes i lift at ups..then that "JC" was tryna get smart with us about the weight..then you tried to talk about him in kreo but it was just horrible..lol..so we had to squeeze like 14lbs into your hand luggage..lol... Remember he gave you that funny look then asked which was more important clothes or soap...and you were about to give the soap away..always tryna be stylish..we eventually got everything straight and you and mommy walked into the airport..I swear if i knew that was gonna be my last time seeing you i would have gave you the warmest hug and the biggest kiss on your cheek..I can picture your face now..mug "Alhaji what are you doing!"....Kadi man i love you till death.. remember when we were younger you used to always beat me up and i would go back and tell then get beat again cuz i was on the wrong...*sign* i would do anything for those days again..no matter how bad of a position i was in i would always fight back and lose and cry..ooo rememeber when i finally pulled the best prank on you..you asked me to get you a glass of sprite and i gave you soap water and you drunk it..lol..it was all good till daddy made me drink it..i rememeber when you taught me how to fight..and i won my first fight against you...it was in our room.. i cant really recall why we were fighting i just know i started it..but some how i had you in a head lock and and was pulling your hair...yep that fight made me 1-39..but thats when we realized i was growing up ......you used to always be in the hallways with anna and yalle....me and milton and harry would play football in the halls ..yep good ol'days....The first time i actually won when we were going on each other and i started talking about your feet..lmao..yeah you got real salty!! I always slept in your room cause i was afraid to sleep by myself..oh man did you hate it..but i am your baby brother you had no choice ;-).....Every morning for school i would wake up to my legs being pulled off the bed..i would always wake up before i hit the floor and tell u i was up...but i guess it was fun for you...you used to help me pick out my outfits for school...man i used to loe when we were the same sizes shoe..i used to taking your jordans allllll the time.... and try to put them back where they were before you would come home from school..but i always got caught cause i never thought about cleaning them..lol
jordans= $89
dropsocks=$12
the ass whoopin i took= Priceless
Then we had to split up..you went with mommy and i was with daddy..
thats when i knew i had to man up...sleeping in the room by myself.. damn i hated that...Thats prolly what cause my accidents in bed..lol..
i rememeber the first time i told you i loved you..Now that i think about it ..I did it on here..i think it was in my last note..i can rememeber the last time that i told you that i loved you..It was tuesday.. the day you left ..You called me while i was at work happy as ever.
"Alhaji i was just calling to let you know that im leaving new york now"..but i was busy at work so i didnt get achance to say i love you before you got off the phone...but i texted you 2minutes later...i can only pray that you got it...when i got the news this morning.. i didnt know what to do...im leaving the gym about to get pay off yourline of credit..(being the goooooood brother that i am) i got like 12 missed calls...shit before i checked it i thought i was a celeb..im all smiling like yeah ..people wanna talk to me...the first person i called back was uncle sallu...when he told me your were in a accident..i was shocked..i knew something had to be wrong cause he was crying..as soon as he said that i began shedding tears right there knowing something couldnt be right... my uncle told me to go straight home and call him when i got there..before i got home i got a call from tigi ..she asked me if i knew what happened i was like nahh not really wassup..then she told me that you died in a car accident..i didnt wanna believe her so i said i was gonna call back...then rabi called...then nana k ...then tida...by this time im doing 96 in a 25 zone..even though you would have hated to see me do that i was tryna figure out wassup..before i get home i got like 6 texts saying im sorry i heard about what happened to your sister..you tears are flowing out my eyes...i can hardly see the road..but i couldnt slow down i had no reason to..at last when i get home i hear the news..but people in the house saying its not confirmed or not...so i call mommy and i hear her crying at the top of her lungs.. saying "kadi.... she's dead, she's dead alhaji" i broke out knowing then that i lost 1 of my loves.. my heart...my sister..Kadija Jalloh.. I will never forget the things that you have told me....You, me, abijoe and a select few know what was really suppost to happen in that crash..i rather it be me..I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU..
stay on my shoulder and help your brother out :-)"

that was my everything yall... you now know that much more about me